Surrounded by Males

Yes we are having another BOY! My initial reaction was " My life will always be chaotic and I will never get the experience of my daughter braiding my hair or getting to see what she would have looked like." I guess deep inside I always knew the baby was another boy, but my dream of it being a girl would always take over and put me in denial. After having a bit of a pitty party for about a week, I finally got over it. Being a mother to all boys is a huge blessing! I will be their first love, their first kiss, the woman they will always compare other women to, and of course I will be lucky enough to have the attention of all these males! Haha. Now I am over the moon excited and cannot wait to meet this little man. I let my husband choose his name, since this will be our last baby, and I love it! Josiah Solomon will be arriving early May and we are so happy! He is already such a big part of this family and my boys include him in our prayers and all our future plans. Its so beautiful to see my boys talk to my belly and feel Josiah move around to his brothers voice or pokes! He is amazingly active and feels very heavy to me at times, but I am trying to enjoy every minute of this final pregnancy.

Tomorrow is the BIG day!!

With all the excitement from Thanksgiving to Christmas I have been delinquent on my update! First and Foremost Happy Holidays to everyone and all the best wishes for the New Year peaking around the corner. I had a great Thanksgiving and Christmas with my Husband and my beautiful boys! I am truly truly blessed! My pregnancy is going well so far and tomorrow we find out the sex of the baby! I can honestly say it has been such a long wait for us because with my boys we knew right away it seemed like, but this one has kept us guessing, the little stinker! Im so excited I probably wont sleep tonight!

Heres one of our beautiful memories made this season!!

Valuable life lesson

My grandmother passed away on Wednesday morning. I personally did not have a really close relationship with her, although I saw her every Sunday at church. My father never really took us over to visit her and she never came to visit us. Somehow as life went by and I grew older I never felt that need to see her more or get to know her better. Now that she is gone I miss her dearly. I remember how she spoke, how she praised at church, I remember how she looked when she was confused, and it makes me miss her. I know and believe she is in a better place being as she served God most of her life. Still that void is still there. That desire to turn back time and make more of an effort. I went to see her a couple of times before she passed, when I heard she was sick. She told me she love me and always had, and to keep my faith in God and to raise my children with the same faith.
As I saw her body being lowered under ground today and saw all my family surrounding, I could only think how making memories with family and the ones we love is the most important thing to do in life. It is not fair that once they pass- one sits there regretting the coulda, woulda, shouldas. The time is now, today, to tell the ones we love that we indeed love them and that spending quality time with them is so important.
I look at my family with different eyes today. This is the first time someone in my family or even dear to me passes. I know I will experience these feelings again in my life- as people pass away. But the most important lesson it has taught me is that, tomorrow is never promised so why save for tomorrow what you can do today?....
My advice to anyone is to make the time to pick up the phone and make that call to your loved one. Make that long drive to visit family. Those precious moment are so valuable when the time comes to say goodbye. Love today, don't wait for tomorrow.

Things Happen

After the heartbreak of going through a miscarriage we decided to stop trying and just be happy with the beautiful boys God gave us. Well God surprised us and I got pregnant again right after the miscarriage! I guess its true that when you stop trying it just happens. I will admit when I found out I was a bit upset because we had already wrapped our minds around only having 2, but today I go in for an ultrasound and I am beyond excited! Life really does throw surprises at you and all you can do is roll with it. Im hoping for a girl, but at this point after going through so much the last couple months all I really want is a healthy baby. I thank God for all the blessing in my life, I just couldn't be happier!!