Dear Abram

Dear Abram,

Today you turn 7 years old. I would like to say I am as excited as you are that you are growing. You talked to me just yesterday about how happy you are. I told you that I wanted you to stay little and you looked at me like I was insane! I wish you knew how much I desire to have the power to turn back time. I would go back to the very day you were born.

I stared at you for hours that day as you slept. I held you and kissed you endlessly. I examined your body, probably better than the doctor. I wouldn't let the nurses take you away, I just held you in my arms all through the night. You slept so peacefully and all I could think about was how perfect you were. Nothing else mattered to me that day.

 

You were born on your dad's birthday. He didn't want to believe me when I said it was time for you to come out. He thought I was joking around. But you came that morning at 10am. Since then his birthdays have been even more special because he shares them with you! We both love you so much! When it was time to take you home we were so excited to start our new life with you. You were such a calm baby. We were really lucky.

You brought the best out of us little one. Because of you we bought our house. We wanted to watch you grow in your very own home. You loved your room. You had no problem sleeping on your own at just 3 months. You slept more than your brothers ever have! You slept a lot! Now, you are the one who wakes up the most. 

I had to go back to work soon after you were born, but I cried for 2 weeks straight every time I drove to work. I hated leaving you. I missed you so much. You never cried though, you stayed calmly with your tia Karla. You really were such a good baby.

I wish I would have stayed home with you. I wish I could have held you longer. I wish I could have bathed you longer.  I wish I could have played with you longer. I wish I could have stared at you longer. I wish I could have taken you for walks longer. I wish I could have read to you longer. ( You have always loved books.)

Life seemed so rushed back then. Time really did fly by. Before I knew it you were getting bigger. You were learning new words. You sat up on your own. You took your first steps. Luckily I got to witness all your milestones, but part of me still feels like I missed so much. I'm sorry for what I missed. I'm sorry for the times I didn't understand what you needed. Those times you cried and I didn't know why. I'm sorry for putting you to bed early when I was tired. I didn't realize you would wake up older the next day.

Still you were such a happy boy and you still are today. Despite all the mistakes I have made as a mother you still love me. As you have grown you have turned into such a wonderful boy. You are a joy to have around. You are smart and always willing to learn more. You have also been a great teacher to your brothers and to me. You taught me how to love. To really love someone more than you love yourself. I love you son. You make my life so complete. I love waking up to your laughter and your happy face. I am so proud of you. Although you are growing up you will always be my baby. Continue to love God with all your heart. I love watching and hearing you pray. I love how interested you are in Bible stories. You make me so happy that you are mine.

Happy Birthday Abram. Thank you for making me a mother. I can't even dream of life without you. You are truly the first of my 3 biggest blessings. God bless you and keep you safe always.